practice…

today I rode my bicycle. I bummped my knee when I went off a curb. hmm.. I found a website online in which I can play pool with other online people. It was entertaining for a while and then I started to win and that was good news. I enjoy being a winner. A poor loser. By the time city hall gets through with my paperwork the job will be over and ill have to once again start searching so i should just start now.

nuit married her brother… nuit.. the goddess of the sky..

the weather is great. i hate the cold.

people who are in my thoughts this very moment.. Santana and Drew.. I hope that you are well! I mean, im sure that you are. Derw, I talk to you every day you better be or ill have to hurt you for keeping it :-p and santana.. i just miss you because I haven’t heard from you in a while.. i just hope i get in contact you before the summer is out.

Road trip.. i wonder.. sounds like fun. should i ask? i dont know about that. im a disappointment. but i want to go. adventure in a way. but not quite because it isnt exactly unknown. perhaps it could be. i wonder….

i will try to remember my dreams

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f-u-k-c

I dont understand this crazy madness in which I live. I have strong feelings for someone yet someone else has strong feelings for me. Im not exactly sure how the person I have strong feelings for feels about me. I mean, I know they like me at least somewhat, but what does that mean to me? I have no idea! I feel bad because I feel the way I do. I shouldn’t. There is no real wrong or right answer I gues I could say. I need to just think about something else. But I cant when I think about thinking only a few things pop up and this is one of them. Who am I? Why am I here? and why cant i get my way?! AHHH

Well… I cant exactly say that my feelings are strong strong.. but at the moment they are strong enough for me. I mean I dont know. People frustrate me I need ice cream or something better yet just give me a roller coaster. I want a roller coaster in my back yard. a whole theme park full of them. I want.. and i cant have.. and that sucks. And I know how certain people must feel perhaps they feel worse or maybe they take things better than I do. I strongly dislike feelings. they are too much of a burden can I just send them on vacation for a little while? can i do that please?

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