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i promised mis padres que si fui a la universidad i would get becas to help out. Well I got dos becas pero i didnt get la unica que me necesario mas. having that one woulda been better than the other two put together. but it doesnt matter porque no lo consigue. told my parents i would get un trabajo este verano. pero guess what, nadie desea emplearme! me dicen que ‘eres chiquitita’ o ‘no aceptamos aplications ahorrita’ o ’si no te llaman en 24 horas puedes buscar pa’ otro trabajo’. I even tried soluciones temporales, donde la gente en este oficina encontra trabajo para ti. but of course that didnt work either. no se que hacer…

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its been soo long since ive posted here
what updates

1. life sucks
2. my brother got married last saturday
3. life sucks
4. my boyfriend hasnt called
5. unemployed

i think i might make a new live journal just for the heck of it

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not so sure the relationship thing is for me.. i mean.. i really like the person im with but i feel so distant from them. kind of alone. hardly ever see um.. its starting to irritate me. im not sure if i should wait it out n see if it can work or should i just give up now and do whatever. i mean, thats what im used to anyway.. doing whatever. marathon re-runs on tv got to drive a stick stalled out twice before i even got the stupid thing started its all good practice thas all i need. i had an idea today earlier to bake cookies for my neighbors but thats a lot of cookies… not sure if ill go through with that. i need to clean my room. maybe tomorrow. i need to get out of here..

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i hate businesses. . . . they all ask me… how old are you? then i tell them then they acted all surprised like im lyin then they tell me they arent hiring. or they just straight out tell me they arent hiring.. or they give me an interview and say.. well if we dont call u back within the next 24 hours then u should start looking for another job. i cant stand it. about to give up.

i think im guna drop out of school