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Where am I? everyone says im just bleh. I don’t like being bleh or even being concidered bleh. We bought a movie the fantastic 4. and it wont play on the DVD player! Thats just what I need! a new dvd player! yea! too bad my birthday is sooooo far away!

I forget half what I was guna say cuz I started writing over 2 hours ago. ah well maybe it will come back to me later.

I really really wana leave this place you know.. my house.. its boring.. I tried to get away but I don’t think its going to work. maybe I shoulda went home with someone else for spring break instead. . . like victoria. that coulda been fun! but noooo i told her I was tryna leave from my own place and now im stuck here with my parents and my bratty brother. kinda sucks..

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FAEO
I took a nap today I had a dream. I can’t completely remember the whole thing but I do remember that I was working at the end of a conveyer belt with like 6 or 7 other people.  All we had to do was make sure the crap that came through the converyer belt made it onto the next one.  And we did our job well.  I forget if there was any point to it because thats all I remember and it happened a lot earlier in the day.

Change N.
1 a : to make different in some particular : ALTER
2 a : to replace with another
   b : to make a shift from one to another : SWITCH
   c : to exchange for an equivalent sum or comparable item
   d : to undergo a modification of

Who am I and what am I doing with my life?  Am I doing it for me or am I doing it because its what others want of me.  Is that the reason why I am not doing as well as I could because my heart isn’t into it?  There is something I want to try.  My mother doesn’t like the idea but this isn’t her life.  It’s mine.  Yea her mom completely controlled her life to the point where she couldn’t even step a foot out the door without having to be interrogated to the death about where she was going and who she was with.  But I want to try something new just for me.  Not for anyone else.  I can’t even mention what it is that I want to do because I mean what if I never get around to it anyways? And what if I do but it turns out im not good at it? So ima just leave it between me and whomever I’ve already informed.

Its amazing how people come in and out of your life.. Just when you think you’ll never hear from or even speak to the person again they just pop up outta nowhere. crazie.  Turns out I might be seeing an old aquaintence sometime in the future. 

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el boxeo

Boxing is fun I went to my first ever match yesterday. would i do it again? heck yea! It was great blood and everything. One guy even got KOed. sucks to be him! This guy Sam, it was his first match ever and he lost but he did pretty good fora first timer *smile* I gotta admit tho that when I first saw my baby get hit I felt bad I duno it’s just I’ve never seen him get hit by anyone other than me before and it just didn’t feel right with me. made me feel all hurt inside but then I realized that this is what he does and hes good at it and hes not really getting hurt anyways I mean look at him, he’s obviously winning! and guess what he did he did! I went home with a champ. and to celebrate we went out to eat. I know how much he hates getting recognized for his birthday so I went ahead and told the people at the restuarant that it was his birthday and the whole restuarant sang happy birthday to him and he got some cake. muhahahaa. he loves me! oh yes he does! happy me!