hidden feelings?

Its amazing how much you may or may not care about something but don’t even realize it until something big happens. Or at least you thought happened. I need to get started on this 10 page paper.. ooh yea! and I need to finish a test. I should get going.. perhaps if I have time i will write more later

baby names

Michaela Emiko-lynn -
Josiah Cai – God had healed, rejoice

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I am going to New York this weekend. I don’t particuarly want to go. I don’t like relying on other people to do things for me because when they don’t get done I get the consequences and thats really not cool. I mean all I wanted to go was go up for Judicial Board Representative.. all they had to go was get 20 people to sign saying they would like to see me on the ballet and turn it in by a certain time and they didn’t do it so now I can’t even run which I think its stupid but whatever. I got over it and I’m not even mad you know I was tryna do something good but maybe that just wasn’t something I was supposed to be doing so I’m just guna let it go.

I have to complete a test and do my laundry by tonight cuz I needa finish before I leave AND I have to study for a test but I don’t feel like it I’m almost tempted to just skip out on my quiz.. ha!

what came true..

FAEO

let me see..
wellll I’ve always wanted to be with someone whom I can share the reading of the bible with. I have always wanted but never recieved flowers of any kind from anyone ‘just because’ and that has now happened to me twice! ooo! I have always wanted to go to a boxing game.. since my abuelo was a boxer and all.. and I’ve never actually seen him fight but I’ve still wanted to go at least see one live! and I finally did all because of you and you did a really good job too. I never thought I could fall in love.. in fact, i’ve even told people to their faces not to ever love me or fall in love with me because I couldn’t love them back! but look at me now.. I have never had a date for a dance ever! And could never ask for two better than the two I had for Jr. Dad’s I’d never even imagined the thought of getting married.. not that that was a dream of mine because it most definatly wasn’t! but now i’ve got it in concideration and i just find it kinda funny. I’ve never danced in the mall with anyone and that was really fun. I’ve had dreams of bein a bum kinda and well that one time we chilled at the train station with our blankies.. that was really cool =)